Disjointed Thoughts

Getting drenched in the rain and looking like a scarecrow ! it is one thing to sit at home with a warm cup of coffee and wax eloquent about the beautiful rains. but it is totally different to actually get completely drenched and wet to the bones, especially when you have to reach somewhere that is not your home.

The day-time diet can go to dogs when a can of Milkmaid sitting in the refrigerator cries-out for attention ! 

Not wanting to know the truth. would that be selfishness, or self-defense, or self-pity or self-fulfiling  ?

Sometimes i revel in my failures, loses, hurt and sadness. i feel they make my life interesting (atleast in my own eyes). or else i really have nothing much, nothing to rebel against or fight for. being cross is convenient. you don't bother about possibilities. but you can be cross only for so long.

About letting go and finding peace, this is what a friend had to say...One cold wintry night (one of those nights which u never remember and bypass in retrospection coz they never stand for anything), nothing lifechangingly important happened to me except that i let go...let go of all the anger, negativity, angst, everything that i had nurtured so obstinately hoping that it will give me the passion to live life as it should be led, recklessly...and it felt strangely empty and not liberating...suddenly there were no ideologies to oppose , no causes to fight for and no reason to be nasty to ppl...and i am not sure that i am ok with such a state of existence...but if that is the case did i really let go in the first place???