Monday, August 29, 2011

Things I would like to do that I am unable to:

  • Finish the three books I am currently reading. This is really crazy. I haven't been able to finish any of them in almost a month. Bad, bad bad baaaaad !! :O
  • Not being able to take the public transportation system to work. Off-late, since we leave around the same time, my dad likes it if he gets to drop me off to my work before heading off to his. So while the driver is busy driving the car, I have to make nice conversation with him, instead of being able to read a nice book. Err. Well. Not the best thing to say, but I have enough of his conversations at home. I so cherish my 45-min commute in the public transportation system, with a book. That is how I finished books fairly quickly !
  • Go to a beach on an (almost) everyday basis. I miss the beach, I miss being near the ocean and looking at the pattern the waves make and the infinite horizon. I listen to the OST of Beach to drive the feeling away.
  • Read more about Anton Gaudi, Andy Warhol, Coco Chanel. These three were not just famous or talented, but absolutely crazy. And I love crazy people.
  • Be shockingly rude or cheeky to the aunties and uncles of the family who are keen to get me married -off.
  • Stare back at random people who just stare at me, for no reason absolutely. I am the last person on this planet who likes attention on myself. So I never dress or act to draw attention. Still fails to work.
  • Get back to learning Urdu.
  • Wear a saree !! Arrrgh.
  • Not be camera-shy. My cousin and my camera-shyness is legendary in the family. We practically hide when we see a camera. :D
  • Stop buying post-its and other stationary, even when I do not need them. My reaction to seeing good stationary is like an overweight child's reaction to a mayo-dripping burger. I do not need it, but I still want it.
  • Stop treating some people like they are a mystery. Some are just plain silent and boring and lazy. Nothing to do with them being troubled.
Pfft. !!! :)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

I have been reading novels for forty years. I know there are many stances we can adopt towards a novel, many ways in which we commit our mind and soul to it, treating it lightly or seriously. And in just the same manner, I have learned by experience that there are many ways to read a novel. We read sometimes logically, sometimes with our eyes, sometimes with imagination, sometimes the way we want to, sometimes the way the book wants us to and sometimes with every fiber of our being.

- Orhan Pamuk, The Naive and the Sentimental Novelist.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Shauk Hai...

One of ARR and Gulzar's little-known magic. Unfortunately this was used just as a background score.

Raat ka shauk hai
Raat ki saundhi si khamoshi ka
Shauk hai, ho shauk hai, ho shauk hai

Subha ki roshni
Bezubaan subho ki aur gungunati
Roshni ka Shauk hai, ho shauk hai, ho shauk hai

San sani anwlon ka
Ke ishq ke banwlon ka

San sani anwle
Ke ishq ke banwle
Barf se khelte badolon ka
Shauk hai

Kaash ye zindagi Khel hi khel mein kho gayi hoti
Raat ka shauk hai, ho shauk hai, ho shauk hai

Neend ki goliyon ka
Khwab ke loriyon ka
Neend ki goliyan
Khwab ke loriyan
Bezubaan aus ki boliyon ka
Shauk hai
Kaash ye zindagi binkahe binsune so gayi hoti
Subha ki roshni
Bezubaan subho ki aur gungunati
Roshni ka Shauk hai, ho shauk hai...

Lyrics Courtesy: http://www.navrasas.com/guru/shauk-hai.html

This song is about a girl's desires. a girl who wishes to feel the joys of life. she aspires to feel the night and the quietness that ensues. she aspires to feel the day with its bright mornings. she wants to taste the madness of love, as much as she wants to be able to taste the tangy amla. she fancies to be able to feel the cold and the cloud, and the beautiful dewdrops...

Kaash yeh zindagi khel hi khel mein kho gayi hoti...

She has no anger at the things that she has been denied. she has some simple wishes before she starts to drift off to her sleep with lullabies and sleeping pills.

Kaash ye zindagi binkahe binsune so gayi hoti...

It is easier said than done when people say, "wake up and smell the rain, take pleasures in the simple things of life." what if you want to, but you are simply unable to ? what if there is something so broken in you that you cannot fix it and you cannot feel anything ?

While talking about the song with a friend, he said: isn't it horrible when you are incapable of strong feelings...you feel like a walking ghost.

Touché.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Gambling.

A bout of all-night Texas Hold'em brought back memories of this Kenny Rogers song.

The Gambler - Lyrics: Don Schlitz

On a warm summer's evenin' on a train bound for nowhere,
I met up with the gambler; we were both too tired to sleep.
So we took turns a starin' out the window at the darkness
'Til boredom overtook us, and he began to speak.

He said, "Son, I've made a life out of readin' people's faces,
And knowin' what their cards were by the way they held their eyes.
And if you don't mind my sayin', I can see you're out of aces.
For a taste of your whiskey I'll give you some advice."

So I handed him my bottle and he drank down my last swallow.
Then he bummed a cigarette and asked me for a light.
And the night got deathly quiet, and his face lost all expression.
Said, "If you're gonna play the game, boy, ya gotta learn to play it right.

You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.

You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table.
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done.

Ev'ry gambler knows that the secret to survivin'
Is knowin' what to throw away and knowing what to keep.
'Cause ev'ry hand's a winner and ev'ry hand's a loser,
And the best that you can hope for is to die in your sleep."


And when he'd finished speakin', he turned back towards the window,
Crushed out his cigarette and faded off to sleep.
And somewhere in the darkness the gambler, he broke even.
But in his final words I found an ace that I could keep.

You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table.
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done.

Lyrics courtesy: http://www.cowboylyrics.com/lyrics/rogers-kenny/the-gambler-8525.html

Friday, August 5, 2011

read this somewhere:

getting lost will only help you find yourself.

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The kindest word in all the world is the unkind word, unsaid.

- author unknown.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

The disappointment that the movie was...

Blame the overdose of social networking sites, online reviews and people discussing animatedly on the sadness of the last potter movie. i too am sad that harry potter as it was, will never be seen again. J.K Rowling may be expanding the idea laterally, delving into the past of some principal characters. she has already started Pottermore. but as a fan of the book, the movie was very very disappointing. because it is hard for me to judge the movie objectively. as with any adaptations from books, David Yates has taken many cinematic liberties. and rightly so. this is about a movie, with a limited number of frames, a budget and time. so it isnt possible to show every angle of a character and every bit of magic. but i felt, in this movie, he has taken one too many liberties which have meant that some characters were not really depicted properly. in fact, i would go on to say that they were butchered.

1. Harry's interaction with Ollivander:

The movie depicts the interaction as almost hostile. harry accuses him of lying. harry is not like that.

the book says that ollivander knows only about wands, as he is a wandmaker. he has no idea about the idea of deathly hallows and harry trusts that he is being honest. harry is a forgiving person, who understands that ollivander had to tell voldemort about the elder wand under immense pain and torture. in fact he takes a liking to the wandmaker.

2. Voldemort's character:

the book depicts voldemort as not only dangerous and ruthless, he is also cunning and calculative. he does not take over the ministry or hogwarts, but installs his followers. he never leads from the front, does not think twice about letting his best followers to die for him. only when harry (his biggest nemesis) is dead, does he lead his pack of death eaters into hogwarts.

movie: one too many scenes about voldemort with his death eaters stading on top of a mountain, as if he is going to lead them into the hogwarts battle. this is murder of voldy's character as a leader.

book: voldemort never feels the physical pain when a horcrux is destroyed. he cannot feel pain. he only has anger and fear when he realizes what harry is after. this is an essential element about his character. his soul is so damaged that he cannot feel pain or weakness.

movie: harry says i can feel he is getting weaker !

3. Nagini:

harry never mentions nagini being the 7th horcrux to Neville, who eventually kills it. i guess it could be justified as wasting two more frames in the movie, but then why tell Hermionie and Ron ? the script could have showed harry telling all the three of them together.

the movie shows nagini roaming about freely and voldy fighting-off harry, a true hero-villian (think Matrix or closer home, Main Hoon Na !) style. well, i will get over with the latter one. but nagini roaming freely ? this again depicts voldy's character incorrectly. voldermort did fear for nagini's life once he realizes harry is after the horcruxes. he keeps nagini close to himself and only after he thinks harry is dead does he release nagini from the protective sphere. harry afterall managed to scare voldy.

4. Elder wand:

I thought the story behind elder want is one of the most fascinating sub-plots JKR created. the most powerful wand, so powerful that it chooses it own allegiance. a wand that also brings death and destruction in its wake. the wand is almost like a separate character. and the movie did not do justice to it at all. in fact, in the end, harry just snaps the elder wand into two, as if it were any other wand. if so, then what happens to his own wand ?

the book very beautifully depicts the longing and greed the wand creates. harry repairs his own wand with the elder wand and then returns it to its original place. the elder wand is a magical wand, which cannot be merely snapped into two.

5. various conversations that bring-out characters:

in snape's memories, the bit about petunia writing to dumbledore, to be accepted at hogwarts is never mentioned. it is an important aspect of petunia's dislike towards harry and his dead parents. why did she dislike them so much, but not enough to leave harry to grow-up at an orphanage ? petunia's anger was as much due to the "freak" nature of her sister as well as not being able to have the talent of magic.

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harry never mentions to aberforth that albus dumbledore always regretted his actions during his teenage years. up untill then, aberforth has been a ring-side viewer to the battle. but that conversation might have been a big reason why aberforth too joins actively in the hogwarts battle.


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Kings Cross: this is where harry truly understands dumbledore's actions and his anger goes away. this is also where dumbledore is humble and almost child-like and asks harry for forgiveness for not trusting him enough. this interaction is so important. one of the best part about the characters created by JKR is that the good characters are not all white. they have made their mistakes and have had a grey past, but they have made amends. sadly the movie missed this part completely.

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these are just some of the differences from the book, differences that are important enough to change the sketch of a certain character or narrative. i am not even going into other numerous mistakes in the movie. i will admit that at the end of the day, the movie was made for a larger audience, and i am being too finicky about the finer details in the book. but then it could be done without making some of these glaring mistakes, which are bound to fall in the eyes of an avid book fan. as i mentioned earlier, there are times when you would want to overlook certain aspects as "director's vision", but at the end of the day, this is a movie made from the book. not inspired by it. there is a difference, a big one at that.

As Kenneth Turan, a film critic with LA Times said about the book fans watching the movies:

We don't turn to these films for thrilling or original cinema, we look for a level of craft, consistency and, most of all, fidelity to the originals -- all of which we get.

Sadly (for me) this movie gives a wide berth to the quote. Sigh.